In Awe

Pregnancy has always come easy for Bret and I. This time around was no exception. Even still when I took the first pregnancy test it was to reassure myself that it would be OK to drink that fateful Friday night. Not because I really thought I was pregnant already.

Everytime I have gotten a positive pregnancy test there is a rush of feelings. Surprise (even though I probably shouldn't be), overwhelmed that this new journey has already begun, fear that there was no turning back now, and most of all excitement and awe.

I tried to think of a fun way to tell Bret this time (hopefully last) that we were expecting again. To be honest I was still in a little shock so I simply left the test on the bathroom counter. He found it right away when he come home from lunch and smiled when he came out of the bathroom.

Yesterday I stopped by the clinic to meet Bret for lunch. He snuck me back to the sonogram room and we had our first little sonogram. There, at nine weeks was our baby. A tiny flicker showed a heart beat and everything looked great and right on track. Second most important...there was only one.

We have done this before. Three times in fact with three completely different human beings that bless our lives everyday in more ways that we could ever have anticipated.

When I look at the screen I wonder, boy or girl?, will the baby have blond hair like Emily and Logan or strawberry brown like Palmer, will it be fearless like Emily or cautious like Palmer, will it be a cuddler like Logan? Each of our children is so completely different yet so much a like. There are so many parts of both Bret and I that we are always amazed to see them show more of who they will someday be. There is not a single day that we don't smile or laugh because of one of the kids. It is exciting to think about how much our lives will continued to be blessed by this new little one that is on it's way.

Things that Come Up

Once a month Bret gets together with a group of guys for poker night. He has made some great new friends and really looks forward to getting together. He is usually a little sore the next morning from laughing so hard. The beer doesn't help.

This past month shortly after Bret got home from poker I was stunned to get several text messages from the other wives congratulating me on our "news". When I confronted Bret he sheepishly grinned and said, "yeah I guess it sort of came up at poker".

So there you have it. We are expecting our fourth (and probably last) baby at the end of October. Bret outed me at poker even though we were only a few weeks along and had yet to tell our families. So early the next morning I frantically started calling my sister, SIL, and MIL before anything showed up on facebook.

I had been pinning ideas on pinterest about fun announcements with cards or pictures but instead we have poker night. I gave Bret a little bit of a hard time trying to figure out how something like that comes up but oh well. We have always waited until 12 weeks to tell anyone but I guess this time is different. Then a few days later my mom came over for lunch and as we were all sitting at the table Bret told my mom...and the kids. Again..not part of the plan.

The kids are over the moon excited as are we and our family/friends.

Now I am going to go lay down and eat some saltines because I still feel like crap.

It must be in the water

It seems like recently everyone either just had a baby or is pregnant. In Bret's residency program there are 16 residents (4 for each year). In the last six months 3 residents and one resident's wife had a baby. Right now 3 residents are currently pregnant (1 is even pregnant with twins) and two have made it know that they are trying to get pregnant. That is a lot of babies from a pretty small group.

My friend Matt and his wife had their beautiful twins this past Monday and all are doing great.

It just seems like everyone around is pregnant. Sometimes I wonder if it is just what we notice. You know how when you were really wanting to get engaged or had just got engaged it seemed like EVERYONE else had a ring or were going to get a ring soon. Maybe it was because you were totally in tune with that topic that you took more notice right?

No we are not pregnant...or at least I don't think I'm pregnant. You never know. I have a follow up visit with my OB Monday for the post surgery appointment. I always hate that dreaded question that they have to ask...is there any chance you could be pregnant? Well....

I asked Bret what his favorite answers were to that question. He said that I would not believe how many people say "no, no way..there is no possible way that I could be pregnant" and low and behold they are pregnant.

He had to explain to 13 year old one time that yes you could get pregnant through cotton underwear. (Even I had to think about that one). People TALK to your kids.

Anyways I guess this just leads me to think that maybe baby is on the brain. We know we want more kids but the question is more about when. The original "game plan" was to be delivering this spring but as you can see that has gone out the window (surgery, work, daycare costs, etc). So instead we shall see.