Update

So getting up early for Lent has gotten a little lax lately. Bret is working a rotation where he isn't having to get up quite as early and so my motivation has waned slightly. It was easier to get my butt out of bed when he was up first but now the idea of getting up before him has not really sat well with my internal clock that begs for a few more minutes. I hate this because I heard myself this morning rushing the kids around and mentally keeping my self from yelling "LET'S GO!!!" or "HURRY UP". Ugh

I showed a friend a picture of the dress that I am supposed to wear and she pointed out something that hadn't hit me before...the dress is totally designed for the 5'8 or taller type of girls that are also bridesmaids...not the 5 foot nothingness of me. If you don't believe me please feel free to check out the dress for yourself at David's Bridal. The style code is D18293 and the dress is in Apple RED. My MIL mentioned that "so and so" is bigger than you and bustier and the dress looked nice on her although she did look like she might fall out a bit but I am sure with a good bra you will be just fine. Thanks, I feel so much better. Her intention is in the right place...right?

Bret had stay late last night so he didn't get home until after 7 and by the time we had dinner and got the kids off to bed it was getting late. My two running buds were not available so after much begging and pleading I finally convinced Bret to "walk" with me. Luckily since he is over 6 ft tall he has long legs and his "brisk" walk is comparable to my "slow" jog. It was something at least.

This weekend is the first weekend Bret has not worked in almost a month and we are all so excited. I think we might take a trip to the aquarium as we haven't been there before. I have heard different opinions on whether the NJ or Baltimore one is better. Thoughts? Hopefully I will have some fun pictures to post soon as our other adventure for the weekend is to get family photos taken. Fun, fun!

Understudy Bridesmaid

My SIL is getting married this summer to her high school sweet heart. We love her soon to be husband and he has felt like family forever. Long story short SIL did not ask me to be a bridesmaid but instead asked me to be her personal attendant. I was hurt b/c I felt like we were more like sisters than that. She was in my wedding, she lived with me for a year, I have been in her family for over 10 years, etc, etc. I told her my feelings were hurt, she felt bad, but was set on having her BFF's be the ones standing at the alter with her (she is having 5 bridesmaids). Fast forward several months and all was well. I got over it and was excited to help with the planning.

Then a couple of days ago I saw her facebook status and it said something about being super stressed about the wedding and something about not everything was going smoothly for the first time. So being the good sister I called her to see what was up and how I could help. Little did I know the "how I could help" part was going to be key.

One of SIL BFF's brothers just got engaged and are planning on getting married in Vegas on the same day so she had to bow out. So here I am trying to convince SIL that this isn't that big of a deal. She can have the Best man stand at the alter with the groom, she can had two guys escort one girl, or she can ask one of her other BFF's to stand in. Then there was this awkward pause where she starts to say that if I want to say no she completely understands but she really wants to ask me to be a bridesmaid.

My response was of course. I want her to be happy and I want things to go smoothly for me and it doesn't matter if that means I am standing outside handing out programs or in the front of the church besides her. Where ever she needs me that is where I will be. I am not some sort of hero because in all honesty I am kind of secretly thrilled. It's like the understudy who worked their butt off and then the lead gets hurt and the spotlight is now yours. In my SIL's defense if I was in her situation I probably would have done the same thing. I am sure that she and her future husband were going to have 6 bridesmaids I would have been next in line (shh, just let me go with this) and now here it is. The wedding is saved and everything is as it should be. (Bret said...see I knew everything would work out the way is was supposed to.)

Then I saw the "Dress" that I am supposed to wear and I started to panic. I have to say that I have been slacking in the slightest in the exercise and diet area and it was kind of nice to not have to worry about looking like the skinny hot college students that will be standing next to me. So I ran 3 miles last night and have started a major low carb, low cal diet, and started looking at tanning places for a good deal. I will keep you posted on the progress (or lack there of as I start to panic).